ऐसे क्यूं ❤️

/ऐसा क्यूं कुछ तो लिखती हूं
लिख के मिटाती हूं मैं रात भर
ऐसे क्यूं बातें खुद की हाय
खुद से छिपी हूं मैं आज कल पर ये सब सोचना
दिल को यूं खोलना
सब कुछ कह कर हाय
सब को बताना जरूरी है क्या//
This was just another night when you crossed his path with his new girlfriend and you type him messages back home in the darkest hours of night.That name in your contact still with a heart.You talk about how your life has reached the lowest after he left.Your words fall in the keyboard like a laminar flow of emotions.You vent out the heavy feelings which you didnt even talk to yourself after he left.May be you run away from the pain of his absence.May be you assumed you will shatter in pieces if you see the miserable shade of yours without him.You have not even seen your own scars nor aided them.You don’t let yourself invade into your personal space of bruises and anguish.You write long messages just to backspace at the end,with tears on the 6inch screen.But you feel why does every unsaid words are never understood even for once.You ask to those walls in your room,Why it’s like a pacemaker to make him realise,you have been loving him and successfully failing in moving on from him since long.

//ऐसे क्यूं उसके होठों पे
अच्छा लगता है मेरा नाम
ऐसे क्यूं कुछ भी बोले वो
मन में गुलता है जफरान
गिरता है गुलमोहर ख़्वाबों में
रात भर क्यों ऐसे ख्वाबों से बाहर
जरूरी है क्या//
You miss him calling you by a different name.The day when he said you infront of everyone ‘Mine’ and the nights when he didn’t miss to drop a ‘Goodnight Kiss’ in your inbox even when you slept early.The videocalls and the long hugs,you miss everything.His funny humor and his cheesy lines, everything made your life better..He left since days and months.Unfortunately,you still did dream of holding his hands,kissing his forehead and loving him.You pull yourself to stay in those dreams forever but sunrises pull you out fiercely.

Numerous questions pile up in your heart for him.You manifest someday he will speak his heart for you.Your every ‘WHY’ just get rebounded back to your face.No matter what,he has gone for no good is the ultimate truth.You can run a marthon but can’t change the truth of your heartbreak.